What’s the plan for this week’s menu?

More cauliflower soup. This time, I’ll use real onions instead of onion flakes. Actually, I think I’ll have green onions in it. And a little more cayenne than last time. It was great warmth. 

 

Something with kielbasa, as requested by Teaspoon. 

 

White pizza with cauliflower crust. Or possibly portabella mushroom pizza (mushrooms as a crust).

 

Breakfast with turkey bacon – again a Teaspoon request.

 

Creamy tomato sweet potato soup (2 cans chicken stock, 1-2 sweet potato, onion, 1 can tomato paste, kielbasa, 1 can chopped tomatoes, cumin, flour, 1 packet cream cheese, green onion, salt, pepper, and crockpot it for 8 hours on low)

 

 

AND Superbowl weekend is on its way. We’ll have chili at my mom’s house like we always do, but maybe there should be a snack. Crab rangoons? Stuffed mushrooms? Popcorn?

 

I haven’t been on in forever… here’s what I’ve been eating!

Without making excuses about why I haven’t been here, I’ll simply say I’ve been busy. However, I don’t want to leave you totally high and dry, so how about some food ideas?

This week, I ate:

Chicken Parmesan with Spaghetti Squash (Squash, crockpotted chicken, spaghetti sauce, mozzarella cheese)

Chopped Mexican Salad (coleslaw bagged mix, romaine lettuce, a can of black beans, crockpotted chicken with taco seasoning, a can of tomatoes and chilies, crushed tortilla chips, taco seasoning, a tiny bit of ranch)

Cheddar Cauliflower Soup (chicken stock, milk, flour, cheddar cheese, onions, cayenne pepper, salt, pepper, garlic, cauliflower)

Breakfast (fried egg, spaghetti squash grilled into cakes)

Avocado and ham (lunchmeat)

Garlic Honey Chicken (crockpot recipe: chicken, honey, blackberry jam, soy sauce, sesame seeds, red pepper flakes)

Zucchini Skillet (quinoa, zucchini, tomatoes and chilies, black beans, avocado)

 

So, it’s actually taken us more than a week to eat all of that. And we’ll be having more salad and chicken parm this weekend, because we’re not quite done yet. But I think everyone enjoyed most of it! By far, my favorites were the 2 Mexican dishes, the soup, and the avocado, but I’ve had repeat requests on the honey chicken as well. 

Some good things about my day (and one concern)

Let’s get the concern out of the way first. I am DIZZY. When I stand up, when I sit, when I walk… I’m so dizzy I feel like I’m going to fall down. NOT fun at all! I emailed the doctor and sought advice online. We’ll see. 

Now the good. 

Today, I was complimented up and down all day! It felt SO good. One of my students told me I looked like a person from Paris. When I asked if that meant I looked stylish, he gave a very enthusiastic yes. I guess my new thick bangs, my scarf, and my ruffly sleeves make me look like a model! 😉

Also, J, who frequently says I look great, went on and on about it today. That felt good. And the school nurse, who I saw in the hall and later went to when I was dizzy, just kept saying “Wow! You look so great!”

Part of me is the tinsiest bit hurt when people say that, because I know it implies that I looked REALLY BAD 6 months ago. But really, I really like hearing how great I look. A lot of times, when I get focused on the fact that the scale hasn’t moved in days or my shirts all seem a little tight just above my pants, I don’t see it. I see the flabby arms, the fact that my neck now looks a little old, the fact that there’s still fat above my belly button and that my skin is awfully loose at the bottom of my stomach. But really, I AM looking good. I mean, 6 months ago I weighed EIGHTY-FIVE pounds more than I do now! I could never go to the gym for an hour. I got winded on the way to my classroom in the morning. I was a size 24. I had over 100 pounds to lose. 6 Months ago, I was going to be fat forever. 

But now? The gym is only exhausting because it means leaving the house on a cold day. I can walk for pretty much as long as I want. I can go back and forth between my car and classroom with all of my heavy stuff and still carry on a conversation. I own and wear 2 pairs of size 14 pants (and feel a little small for some of my 16s!) I’ve lost inches – and not just 1 or 2, but 8 or 10! I’m within 40 pounds of being where I set my high goal. In 38 more pounds, I will feel like I’m a “normal” sized adult. I’ll feel like I could tell people my weight. 

And then??

Everything I lose after that will be like a present. I don’t know if it will happen this way, but I imagine that the scale will look different after 150. I imagine not stressing if I don’t lose weight, but being thrilled if I do!

And clothes? If I could get down another full size, I’d have SO many clothes. I mean a HUGE closet-full. My best friend’s mother gave me bags upon bags of clothes. I sorted out what I liked and it was a ton. She has excellent taste and cute, cute clothes. I’ll have so many cute pants and dresses, shirts, skirts, shorts… Add that to the ones my best friend gave me and I’ll be set for life. It’ll be like the world’s best shopping trip!

Just one more good size. Maybe 1 1/2!

What is that – 20 pounds? I bet I can get there by March. Maybe even sooner. 

Tonight, we’re eating chicken with avocado tzitziki sauce. So I guess I better go home and make that. And some asparagus. And possibly pasta for the others. 

And then the gym – treadmill and weights. 

Then, if all goes well, an hour or 2 of Minecraft and Dexter, half an hour of reading, and then one more early morning before it’s the weekend again. 

I’m pretty psyched, I have to admit.

I need to get back on track

The holidays were rough for me. I ate quite a bit of stuff I shouldn’t have. I’m not terribly upset with myself, because I know it’s not the end of the world, but I was pretty bad. Whenever there was stuff out I shouldn’t eat, I still ate it. I was good and limited myself. I didn’t eat a whole lot of sweet, sweet stuff, but I did have tortilla chips, popcorn, stuffing, crackers, even some jelly bellies. 

And it became a habit. 

So now, I need to get back on track. 

To do this, I’ve set little goals. Eat a meal without going back for one more bite (even of veggies). No food not on my plan (stuck to that one today!) Record all food consumed. Go to the gym once, twice, three times. No carby food for a day, two, a week. My idea is to reward myself each time I reach a mini goal (once, three times, a whole week). That way I can’t do great for a week and ruin it all in one day. But I still have bigger successes to look forward to. 

See, I KNOW that if I stay away from bad food and eating constantly that I WON’T want those things. No chips or crackers means I won’t want chips or crackers. And if I “stay clean” for several days, I’ll have a lot more willpower to continue eating right afterwards. 

It’ll also help that the holidays are over, I’m going back to school, and I won’t be home with a million snacks and parties to tempt me. 

So far, I’ve done well. Today, I ate twice and had a protein shake. I didn’t eat anything not allowed and I took some calcium, iron, vitamins, and my happy pill. If I get in a b12 by bedtime and finish my drink+mirilax (my new daily routine) then I’ll consider myself successful for today. Part of me wants to eat a few bites of my taco casserole (2 kinds of beans, lean hamburger, cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, peppers), but I may not. After all, it’s nearly bedtime now. 

I’m feeling positive about all of this. Tomorrow’s lunch is packed. I have drinks and yogurt. I have a plan I can stick to. And tomorrow starts my gym routine again (3+times a week for an hour). I’m really pretty excited about that. And about starting to lose some weight again. 

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